I've been able to stay pretty positive through this whole thing so far. There were a few days where things really got to me, after it seemed like weeks of stiming just weren't going to work. I got frustrated, upset, a little depressed and in there somewhere I'm sure was fear and anger. Well today I had someone say something pretty hurtful, and I don't think they even realize what they said. One of my co-workers, who I've worked with for over four years now, I have stopped sharing info with. We joke around a lot and say plenty of inappropriate things, but when he told a patient one day "You'll have to ignore her, she on hormone shots because she's trying to have a baby." Um yeah...so not something you tell a total stranger! Well today was the first day I've worked with him since finding out my bloodwork came back negative on Friday. I went to go to the bathroom and had to go in to the closet to get my carry bag for my pads, I call it Aunt Flo's travel bag. As I am grabbing it he says to me "Oh I guess that means you're not pregnant hu." Way to be tactful about it there dude! Naturally I thought of a great comeback *after* I had walked away, but I didn't think it had really bothered me that much. After I came back to the office one of my friends was talking to me and I told her what he said and that's when the tears came. She said she was sorry and that it was ok to be upset because it hurts to no get something you want so badly. I'm so glad she was there for me when I really needed someone to offer kind words.
Other than that, tomorrow is CD 3 and I'm off at the buttcrack of dawn to the RE's. As far as I know I start back on my Follistim injections Thursday, strangely looking forward to that! :)
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